To Return to a Time...

I can't really say that I have learned everything I need to know in Life, not even by a speckle of universal existence. If I had, well the whole world would probably be different. Yes, no? Oh well, it makes sense to me. Haha, so the fact that I haven't learned everything completely begs the question from me, "what have I learned so far". Intentional self-question seems so cheesy yet again, like it always was before. I remember those times, to wish right now that I could just press rewind and zoom back into Life. Sleepless hours didn't mean restlessness at all, did it? It always felt like a competition for who would make the other go offline first as we endlessly typed away.
I guess it does feel as if those times slipped away to fast. Ironic how back then we wished time would speed up. I guess the saying "be careful what you wish for" holds true.
However I want to confirm that we never left on the wrong note, nor have you ruined our friendship, nor have I been thrown down by you at all. Quite the contrary.(I know we're forbidden to say sorry, but cmon this doesn't sound as remotely emotional as yours). The wrong note was never made because we never had the ability to make mistakes when we had each others support. (Haha admit it, that makes no sense).
It felt as if swords had been thrown at my heart when you said YOU ruined our friendship. IF anything is ruined at all, its that statement deceiving you into think you're at fault. Neither one of us are at fault for the disconnection that was created in our friendship. This is yet another aspect of nature in which I feel as if I know too much about. There is absolutely, and I mean ABSOLUTELY, no room for remorse or guilt in this friendship. ABSOLUTELY NOT!
And when you say I have been thrown down by you, I must say that is not the case EVER. I know that you are a heartfelt person, and would NEVER throw someone down. You're too good for that kind of stuff. If anything you'd end up pick someone up and boosting them higher into their spirit. I remember all the times you stayed up for me to pick me up and boost me higher. Cheesy? Finally! xD.

So in the end, forgiveness is our universal motivation in this friendship. However it does not exist because in order to forgive, I must perceive you as harm; which as I stated before is NOT POSSIBLE. Therefore our friendship is timeless and our memories are our guides for that.
Hehe hope that makes you feels remotely better, to knwo that you are not alone indeed.