Doubt of a Successful Confession,,,

Why fail when in the process of success?
Do you not notice the limit as to why I confess?

I doubt it.
I doubt you.
Yet you fail to doubt me.
You fail.
I fail.
I fail to think you will stop.
Stop this rhetoric.
Asking me how... why...

But I know it's a lie.
The way you say it.
Say I succeed.
Yet you know it was just luck.
Lucky to become even a fragment.
A fragment of who you are.
But are you whom I believe to think?
Someone who I doubt?
Yet you fail to doubt me.
And as usual...
Yourself.

I Finally Found the Song!

I've finally found THE song! The song that she always loved! After I listened to it more carefully and attentively, I understood why she loved it so much. I put it in my imeem player below, it's called "Kuch Is Tara" which means "In Such a Way". It's by my favorite singer Atif Aslam.
I understand the song now. And it's beautiful!

Does Anyone Even Blog Anymore?

Hello? Anyone out there? Are we done with this yet? Apparently we might be... if not... then respond. Bye... to anyone still out there.

May 12... Closer

Cannot wait as May 12 creeps closer every moment. Pendragon Book 10 is the great prize that waits to be retrieved on this marvelous day, which will mark the epic finale to the amazing adventure series. Cannot wait to finish it in 5 hours! XD











Bye... Muhahaha

I Made the Decision Today...

So I made the decision today during the end of REAP today at the pizza party. The decision was made when I was called during the party and her parents asked for a final decision: Either come watch her go or stay here... I chose to stay. Like I said before, it's better for me to stay behind and move on from there rather than go there and experience what will be nothing like a goodbye. And Jimithy! I don't regret it at all, I just can't get over the fact that she's physically going...

The word 'Funeral' just felt too eerie for me, therefore I felt something was wrong... there's no regret.

One of my friends asked me if I was okay, because after that phone call I seemed sad. I tried to act like nothing happened but felt my voice shudder a bit when I said it. The truth is, I was sad at that moment. Not because I wasn't going, but because the truth had become final. After 16 years, something that was destined to happen while we prayed it wouldn't... happened. But...

As thoughts prevail through the destined stride,
It's not destiny, but my thoughts that decide...

And they finally have.


Bye!

Mon Histoire

Bonjour mes amis, je suis Saphire exactement. Je suis ici à vous dire mon histoire petit... mais seulement dans français... parce que je peux le parler maintenant. J'ai été par un océan, mais le problème est je ne peux pas nager ou voler. C'est possible de nager, mais impossible de voler ... naturellement. Un jour j'ai été seulement un humain, mais un autre jour je suis devenu une personne. Une personne avec le sens ... une personne avec l'amour. je suis devenu une personne quand j'elle'ai rencontré. Je serai pouvoir une pause mon histoire pour maintenant et continuerai plus tard... ou jamais.